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read my profile sign my guestbook  Name: KaTie Country: United States State: New York Birthday: 6/24/1988 Gender: Female Interests: AE . bathing suits . baseball . being loud and crazy . being organized . being tan . Betsey Johnson . birthday cake remix ice cream . cars . my celly . cereal . Chinese food . Christian Siriano . cupcakes . dancing . Dane Cook . Derek Jeter . drawing . Dunkin Donuts . ebay . European guys . fashion design . flip flops . football . getting dressed up . guys (and their cologne) . HCO . hoodies . inside jokes . my ipod . Jade and Sapphire (my kitties) . Kat Von D . kickboxing . kisses . laughing . LC . magazines . manis&pedis . milkshakes . music . napping on the beach and waking up tan . napping in general . NEW YORK . nonsense TV shows . parties . peanut butter oreos . piercings . plaid shorts . planet fitness . polka dots . purses . shoes . shopping . sleepovers . sneakers . snowboarding . Spain . summer . sunglasses . sushi . tattoos . texting . thunderstorms . vacations to North Carolina . Vera Wang Princess . Victoria's Secret . volleyball . Yankees Expertise: sexy time && underwear dance parties : ) Occupation: Student Message: message me AIM:  jetercrazy624
Member Since: 1/14/2004 |
Thursday, November 05, 2009
AWESOME nightt!!!!! New York Yankees are back on top where they should be, and the Phillies are, um, NOT hahahaha!!! Fcuk the sore losers AND the haterssss (including YOU, Met fans minusPolishJohn)...Props to Godzilla for playing the game of his lifeeee, and congrats to all the boys in pinstripes and their true fans YEAAAAAAAAAAA BABYYYYYYYYY #27!!!!!!!! | |
Friday, October 09, 2009
Obama won the WHAT?Obama won the Nobel Peace Prize???? Well great, now we can start calling it the Nobel Piece-of-Shit Prize......what a joke hahahaha | |
Thursday, October 08, 2009
| I really miss HS and Ardsley and WP Bowl and shows and frolicking and dressing like a weirdo and experiencing drinking parties in the bathroom and Starbucks and ponyboy and stuttering boys with tube socks and Green Day Dave and duck, duck, goose and giving Octavio a mohawk and Harrison dressing up like a fairy and Dug and parking meters and rooftop chaos and cops and making new friends | |
Tuesday, October 06, 2009
| I cannot even put my anger and frustration into words, because there are none strong enough to describe it. | |
Friday, September 11, 2009
Helpless heroSo....Jon texted me earlier to tell me this: "Well just wanna say bye going back to war in 1 month take care sweetie." I really don't want him to go again, and the whole thing feels so surreal. I'm like really upset over it and when I first found out I started feeling sick and getting shaky, but at the same time, I feel/felt like I'm having an out-of-body experience. Like, I'm in a fog watching this play out, but I'm not really involved in it. It's like really weird and scary and frustrating, and it makes me even more heartbroken because he doesn't think there's anything here for him, so there's no reason to stay. I'm not trying to make it sound selfish by saying "I...I...I...." all the time, but it's just from my point of view. Just like I don't want to have to sit on pins and needles for a year while he is there, saying a little prayer to God everyday "Please let Jon be okay and come home safely" (I am not very religious, to say the least). I mean, I obviously want him to be okay and come home safely so if I have to pray for it, I will...but obviously I would want him to not have to go at all. And it may sound stupid, but I can't help thinking about him constantly, especially when he is there. It's ridiculously dangerous, and I can't imagine what the living conditions are like over there. It's a friggin' desert wasteland, for christ sake. I think the worst part is knowing, or actually, not knowing. It's a combination. Like, I know he's not sitting at home playing WoW while drinking Corona in his room, and I know he's in a dangerous situation, but I don't know where he is, or if he's okay, or how he's feeling, or anything. (Incidentally, I also think about Manny like that. It's like a daily thing to be like "Gee, I wonder what and how Manny is doing?" It's just the fact that someone I know isn't accessible.) It's like a really bad feeling. We haven't hung out in a while (I'm not even gonna get into that...gosh, I wish we did or we could...), but for some reason, it was comforting to know that he was just a car ride away, 3 miles from my house....or hell, 200 miles from school if I'm here. That's a hell of a lot better than him being 3000 miles away in a war zone with limited to no contact for a year. I mean, it's not like we're dating, but he's still a good friend and I love him whether we hang out everyday or once a week or once a year. He's a national hero as well as my hero, but sometimes I get into my mindset where I feel like I need to be everybody's hero, and I want to be his. I try to be supportive of his dream to be in the Army and fight for his country, but sometimes I just wanna be like "It's okay if you don't want to do it anymore, or if you feel like you can't because you're scared or hurt (I'm pretty sure his knees are really messed up, like permanently, from all the stress while he's training/serving) or whatever the case may be. You have friends and family here that love you, no matter how much you say you don't b/c deep down you know it's true. We want you to be happy, but we also want you to be safe." And I just want to make it so that he doesn't have to fight anymore or be exposed to any of that stuff. And I want to help him and be there for him when he needs someone to talk to, or whatever the case may be. The bottom line is I really wish he didn't have to go, and I kind of hope he doesn't, although I don't know what the chances of that are. I could go on and on about the stupid war and politics and Obama and all that crap, but unfortunately I don't think my DESIRE to be everybody's hero would translate into a successful solution to all of those problems. So I'm left to pray for Jon and try and get through to him and make things better for him, while all-around feeling like a helpless hero :/ Ugh I really hate this. | |
